don't believe anything you think after 10 pm

sometimes you can actually stop believing anything you think after 9 pm!

this especially applies to things like fights you're thinking about picking (or maybe are actively picking right that moment); texts you're thinking about sending; the marathon you may or may not ever run; the friends you've grown apart from; the passage of time; whether you should go to grad school; the person who was rude to you in high school; the person you were rude to in high school; &c &c &c ad infinitum until it's 2 am and you're still not sure whether you'll ever buy new running shoes, let alone run a marathon.

the only solution is to pause, take some deep breaths, turn your phone off, and read until you fall asleep. maybe put some lavender oil on your wrists and sip on some water or herbal tea to calm you down. one of the best things i've learned with age!